Reason for the worry wart

wow. im massive worried. my mom has to go to court at one o'clock today. shes supposed to be getting her disability money or whatever its called and if she doesnt get this money then were going to forclose on our house and were already really broke. when i say broke i mean like massive poor people broke. i keep trying to give words of encouragement to her like this morning she was crying and shes all worried about it but i just im really worried and i know she doesnt know that i am but i mean how can i not be. what are we supposed to do if she doesnt get this money. we have no where else to go. its not like its just the two of us either we have a big family that i need to take care of. i used to do a good job at it to. but now i dont have a job and im not able to provide for them like i used to do. i just keep thinking of my little brothers, they dont even know whats going on. i mean they are used to getting lots of the things that they want dont get me wrong we have never been loaded or anything but the boys were ok. this year rayce didnt get anything for his birthday, and jetts is coming up and i dont know if hes going to get anything either. it doesnt bother me that i didnt get anything i could care less but them... i just feel like were breaking their spirits or something. which probably sounds over dramatic or something but its just what comes to mind. its pretty awful. my mom cant think of anything but us hating her. and we wouldnt hate her. i mean no lie id be disappointed and stressed and probably cry but i just dont know what else to do. just i dont know right now and who am i supposed to talk to about this? no one. there is no one. oh well. guess i ought to go. bye.