feeling brothers blues.

OMGG! my little brother went in for surgery today =-l and im sooo scared about it. Im going to the hospital after school to visit him and check on him and stuff but i hate this i know hes going to be all sad and i also know that in the long run he will feel better. idk why im stressing so much i mean im sure that he is fine everything will go great and stay that way i just know it but it still makes me nervous just because im a worry wart i suppose. I'm stressin about it though, its going to just break my heart to see him lying in a hospital bed in pain. my goodness this is awful. I just want to leave now and go and check on him. I didnt tell him good luck or anything this morning because i figured it would make him more scared if i did like it was me saying my goodbyes or something idk stupid thought because now im regretting it and i feel like he hates me for it. Well honestly i know he doesnt hate me he probably hasnt even thought about if his annoying mean older sister has said anything to him today but i just know that i havent so it just isnt sitting well on my brain or conscience or whatever that word is. well ive vented for now, thanks for listening.