Dear class of 2010

Dear class of 20-10
We’ve lost another friend
Our hearts are heavy & faces wet
The memories left we won’t forget
Memories are flashing of our last four years
She’s not the first but the pains still clear
Hard to ignore and easy to see
It never gets easier dealing with the grief
We miss our classmates it seems unfair
For Ashley, Melissa, Eric & Greg
They should be here for senior year
God took them from us, his reasons unclear
We’ve lost too many it feels like hell
I’m over crying, so mad I could yell
I want to know why. Right now
Instead I sit and wonder how
Why this happened; how it could be
Four of our friends now rest in peace

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I was supposed to go to melissas funeral today. i just dont do good at funerals and i wouldnt have anyone to cry on and i like having someone there with me. tooley was supposed to take me and he ended up not being able to go so i kind of took it as a sign beacause he was supposed to take me. Now im kind of regretting not going, i could have just went with bod but i didnt because i dont want to go because i didnt know her as well as some other people but i did want to go to pay respects and because she did use to be my friend. I just feel so blah. i dont know what to do really. I mean i guess i cant really change my mind beacuse its too late now but oh well you know. what can i do? this sucks.

Monday

i hate mondays

starting the week

i always hate them

theyre much too bleak

they are long and slow

and drag along

i hate mondays

i think its wrong

to start work and school and everything

on this awful ugly gross monday

but if we wait until tuesday

id hate tuesday as well

id think it hell

itd be just like the day before

the only difference: id hate it more

but if we wait until wednesday

i think id have to say

id hate wednesday

i think it true

wednesdays the worse

oh what to do?

suppose we start on thursday now

but thursday as monday

oh no oh wow

that sounds of only catastrophe

i guess well start on monday...

this week.

debt before college.

man im broke. like real broke and i definately dont have money for college applications or even the flippin ACT. im not real worried about the act because i got a 21 on it so thats good i think... right? well anyhow i want to take it again after i study and see if i do better, but i cant cuz were freakin poor. aside from that like i said before i cant apply to college without money. which i happen to think is pretty stupid in the fact. i mean i know they need funding and stuff but gosh what about people like me huh? my mom is convinced that i dont have to pay or something cuz were broke and she wants me to apply for the pale grant... or something like that. which maybe shes right but that doesnt change the fact that were broke and im going to need things for college omg i hate stressing over money. cuz there really isnt anything i can do to change it. i mean im tryin like crap but no one is hiring cuz of this doggone recession bologna. well on that note i guess im out of here. enl is over. byeee!

No news is good news...

Tomorrow is my month-averisary! YAY! 5 months and countingg! i'm pretty stoked... MoVING ON.... okay this week we found out that my boyfriend & his family got the call from the realator and the got the house they wanted so they have been packing all week and our moving tomorrow which is totally awesome and great news but a couple hours after we got that good news we got the call telling Jason that Jake had died which obviously is terrible news. The week before that my mom had to go to a hearing about getting her disability and she won, again that was amazing news, we got to keep our house and now were going to be coming into alot more money, alot of money that we need. Sadly just two days after getting that great news i had a dermatologist appointment because my face was breaking out while we were there they discovered the cancerous spot on my back that they had to remove & biopsy which is terrible awful news. with all of the drama here recently i cant help but to think that maybe everytime something good happens something bad has to happen just to make sure im not too happy i think its the universe working against me & its ridiclious. it makes me want to just have no hope that good things will happen.