last nighttt.

so me and my brother had a really hard time last night. he went up to the cementary and called me pretty much freaking out so then i couldnt help but wait for him to get home so i could make sure he was okay and then when we started talking about it i just started crying and then he was crying and basically point being it kinda sucked. and now today im really tired, but its okay im glad to be there for him whenever he needs me to be because usually im the one who is crying and freaking out. i think he holds it in a lot more which isnt good ya know so im glad to help him let it out. anyways i love him. and i understand him so i had to stay up with him.

laughinggg

its funny that today this is your prompt beacuse just yesterday me and my frineds were all talking about what makes us laugh. Like i have the kind of sense of humor where like stupid stuff is just like really funny but then again like some stupid stuff i think is just stupid. like naploean dynamite i didnt think was funny at all but step brothers oh wow, i laughed for like days, seriously days. so it doesnt take much to make me laugh i guess haha im just happy i like to laugh and i like to make people laugh(:

haha

why did you tell bobby, who you know is my sworn enemy, that i said something that i told you not to tell anyone expically bobby, when youre supposed to be my bestfriend of all time who keeps my secrets and doesnt betray me when i ask you not to tell someone something that i said to you secrectively?


im sorry
i told bobby

almost there

so its like 11:50 something and i just remembered i only have 9 blogs. so what to blog about, well ive decided to blog about jealous. because i seem to have a problem with that, me and my boyfriend well, i have friends that are guys and ilove them to death and of course i hug them and they text me and stuff like that and the other day i saw jason hugging some girl and i went off and then he was like baby were just friends and you hug guys all the time and ya know what hes right, but i know that me and they guys that i hug are just friends and nothing would ever happen between us, so i guess the way i was feeling earlier is the same way jason feels all the time, but im not just going to stop being freidns with my guy friends and i really dont wasnt jason to start hanging around a bunch of girls so i suppose i am holding a double standard or whatever. but i just odnt know what to do.

reading.

i love reading. well kind of. i hate being told to read, and i hate being told like what to look for. i like to read just to read, just to hear a story, maybe learn something from it. The nancy drew books, in elementary and middle school i was a beast reader, i loved it. i read every issue of nancy drew they had in the library. ever since i got to high school i just never read. i mean i would like to, i just i dont know really, id rather read my book, but its hard to do whenever you have to read plays and other books that your not even interested in. its like going to the library and letting a stranger check out your book for you and you HAVE to read it or else you die or something i dont know that might be a bad anology but its all i got, its just not fun, they may be into science fiction and your into biographys they just totally dont match. the only book ive ever really enjoyed reading at school was the outsiders, and that was freshman year. im not into shakespear and all this novel thats one huge poem crap. no offense. its just not me.

Disneyyy.

for chours our concert in spring were going to sing songs from different musicals, and my favorite one so far is the lion king, can you feel the love tonight. unfortunately its not the lyrics from the movie but it has the same beat but still, so for like a month now ive been listening to disney songs, hakuna matata, i just cant wait to be king, a whole new world, colors of the wind, and thats only naming a few, i miss when i was a kid, i miss all of those movies, they were really good movies, and like the movies that are coming out today are no where near as good as the classics, i mean they are good movies but the lion king seriously? it has no competetion.

you look like a...

today in government we were talking about how over time what is appropriate in society the bar has lowered and lowered for instance music. Well mr edminson asked a retorical question like whats it going to be like for out kids so i was thinking, i mean can it really get any worse then what we listen to, how some of us dress, how we act and speak, i dont really think theres any lower. im not saying i disagree with the way my generation is i just think that when we have kids our kids are going to be more conservative then us. i think its going to be like them looking at our pictures and being like mom look at what your wearing you look like a... well you fill in the blank. I dont know why but i just think since were so low it can only go up from here.

kissing.

i think people are so weird sometimes. the most normal looking people can have the strangest quirks. this one guy i dated wouldnt kiss anyone unless they swushed sunkist around in their mouth first. Thats strange right. my friends boyfriend sucks all the slobber out of his mouth before he kisses her. which i guess is nice of him if he has over active glands or something. but again thats strange. some people that pucker up to kiss pucker up way to much, like i mean they strain theyre face to push out theyre lips as far as they can, its not that big of a deal. you meet half way sheesh. I think its weird when people move from left to right like a billion times when theyre kissing, its okay to swich sides once of twice but they look like theyre bobbing for apples or something. once again, strange.

Anniversary.

Todays my anniversary, well monthaversary that is, 9 months im pretty excited. 9 months thats sort of a long time i think. I kind of feel like it hasnt been that long but oh well. What stinks is we dont even get to be together today. my mom doesnt like him anymore because she is a crazy woman and yeah shes just crazy. im proud of jason though, most guys would have ran by now because all the guys before him have, but im glad because since they left im with him now. I love him, and ive never loved a guy before haha. Ive been in longer relationships then this and never said the L word but i do. Its a good feeling. I like it.

Dogs advice.

If dogs could talk and give advice. i'm almost positive each would say that we as humans take life much too seriously, we need to stop stressing, we need to take more enjoyment in life, we should get dirty more often, take advantage of our freedoms, start each day as a new day, take a day to just lay around and get our tummys scratched, well maybe you can scratch the last one but i think it would go something like that. Another little piece of advice would probably go something like theres nothing wrong with the yellow snow, if you gotta go ya gotta go. Any ways i think that dogs have it pretty good.

nothing.

blogging. i have nothing to blog about. usually i have alot to blog about but not today. today im blank. im just in one of those, i dont want to do anything kind of moods, its pretty lame. Im really tired too but i just layed in the bed this morning for like an hour, im not sleepy just tired, just feel like literally doing nothing. grrrr. this is so not cool. i want to be hyper but i just have no energy. none at all. boringggg. so boring. and my mind it doesnt want to do anything either. which is precisely the reason i have nothing to blog about, i mean if i just sat here and thought about it im sure i could think of something, but since i cant think, thats probably not going to happen, blahh. im going now, going to do nothing, to sit and stare, and do nothing. bye,

blahh this is bad sorry.

a bad idea. i have had alot of those. the bad ideas that i tend to have are taking my agression out on people. as in getting in fights. so the worst idea ive had was probably to challenge this guy that was like 6'3" 280 pounds to fight because i watched him hit his girlfriend, i've been hit so it really made me mad to see that and i wasnt going to just let her get messed up. The only bad part about this is he accepted the challenge and then beat my butt. Luckily he was arrested. so thats good. im sure it wasnt a bad idea i guess, i mean i had good intentions and what not but i dont know i probably should have just called some body or something. anyways. bad idea.

mhm mhm mhm the possibilities(:

this year is a big one for me. as it is for every other senior in my class. Were leaving for college. Growing up. Thats not the only changes i have in my life though. Not only am i going to college but im looking forward to it. I'm excited to be able to branch out more, speak my mind more freely, i feel like im going to be judged less, and even when im judged i feel like im going to be able to tell thouse people to bite me. i cant wait to see what else is out there here other peoples opinions and thoughts because owensboro is full of alot of bible beating judgmental people. im excited to be more independent, hopefully find another job that pays good. all i want to do is be heard, and in high school i dont think anyone really gives a rats who haw about what you have to say. maybe noone else in the world does either, but its easy to walk away from those people. anyways other possiblilites, a home of my own, a job, college, a car, a liscense, and who knows what else, im going to be something in this world, i can promise you that.

superstitions

hmmm. i guess i may believe in some superstitions but not really. i mean im not going to walk under a latter on purpose, or wait for a black cat to walk in front of me but if it happens oh well. spilling salt is another one im used to. I dont think that i believe in the fact that bad luck will come but my family is superstitious so i just do it out of habit i guess. i break too many mirrors to believe in that one. the kind of superstitions like saying bloody mary into a mirror or whatever, it kind of creeps me out a little bit, i dont guess it makes much since but im just weird i suppose. anywayss, so i dont think im superstitious.