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I was supposed to go to melissas funeral today. i just dont do good at funerals and i wouldnt have anyone to cry on and i like having someone there with me. tooley was supposed to take me and he ended up not being able to go so i kind of took it as a sign beacause he was supposed to take me. Now im kind of regretting not going, i could have just went with bod but i didnt because i dont want to go because i didnt know her as well as some other people but i did want to go to pay respects and because she did use to be my friend. I just feel so blah. i dont know what to do really. I mean i guess i cant really change my mind beacuse its too late now but oh well you know. what can i do? this sucks.